Are we the same as we used to be?

Everyday, we do the things that we often might have not expect to happen. We meet people whom we later on call as friends, we fulfill our daily needs:groceries, chores, homework, etc, we ran into unexpected accidents that could change our lives. These qualities as time embodies its reflection in our soul change who we are. My question is that at some point of our lives, are we going to reflect whom we used to be? What changes that constitutes who we are today is different than who we used to be? Will it be a regret? Or Relief? I tried looking back who I used to be and honestly, I was a "freak" as society would perceive my soul. I thought of negativity around the people, the world and its existence. Maybe I was just a kid back then, I had not seen the world yet but now, I do have seen the world in a wider perspective. I may not literally seen the world big enough but what I think about the world is better now. I see that people are divided into two categories: The one who are blind and the one who sees through everything, somewhat of clairvoyant quality perhaps. Those who are blind can never understand that there are those who care about them, who is unable to understand what the world is really like, and the power that they might have had to make the world better. Those who refuse to make better and fix our past mistakes. Truly it is pitiful. Humans are the strangest creatures in this world. We are an enigma. We have the potential to do almost anything, given our capability of synapses to join and create thoughts that can construct whatever world we desire but we choose to ignore it and instead use it for the gain of greed and world domination. As I age and reflect who I used to be, I am one of those people who thinks that they are able to "destroy" the world what we lived in, but now....I have seen it better. The world isn't a scary place, its our thoughts and desire whom what we should really fear. 

What is feeling good?

When is it that you feel good about yourself? 

The Way I see The World

What are the expectations that we must fulfill in our lives? To get good grades? To go into a top notch school that everybody, by everybody i mean like society thinks its "upper class"? Its not that Im saying is bad or anything but I feel like if we are obliged to do what everyone says or thinks then what about the things that we really want? If nobody tells you that say being a doctor is by far the most important profession in the world but instead say being a musician or artists makes the greatest salary....Wouldn't the world turns upside down? Wouldn't our perspective about the occupations of the world change completely? Imagine yourself that you just never are burdened by the thoughts of the pressure of your particular community, imagine what you will able to do. Maybe thats the reason why there are no such thing as an original idea anymore. I'm sorry if I'm being selfish but hey that is how I see the world. Isn't that why the reason why you get up in the morning, do your so called job, to earn money, whether you actually like the job or not, you do it because its an obligation to society. Then probably being undecided is something not to be shameful about. The world is a big place and there is nothing shameful to not know what you want. We are not enforced to what society expects us to be but instead find what we are really good at and develop that talent by our own desire. True, maybe I'm being selfish, but isn't this our lives? Shouldn't we have a say in this? Honestly, I blame the way we are now because of the world. If not only the world doesn't function this way, it doesn't function on materialism, capitalism, different political and religious views....then maybe, just maybe the world will be in a better place. A place where us young generations are not constricted by the predicament of our parents and what the community tells us. 

Fiction Vs Reality

Have you ever feel that when you see a movie and somehow you feel like the fictional character living the story of that life, has a very similar life to you? Cause i feel i do. I think all of us do. We try to search what we want and what we want to see in every aspect of life. True, they may have several similarities with us but at some point we do have to realize not all life is a fairy tale. There is in fact a reality to every fairy tale. Do you think all princess wait for their prince to be "saved"? Would Cinderella wait for prince charming to save her from her tyrant evil mom and sisters? Would Snow White still be asleep waiting for her prince charming to kiss her? Eventually, if we remove the equation of prince charming would the princesses eventually save themselves? I think eventually...they have to. Otherwise, its just plain stupidity that you rely your life simply based on fictional characters and their lives. We have to rely on our self at some point. We really do. 

Rules of Society

I wonder what does it mean....to live? Are there social obligations that we must fulfill in order to feel satisfied? Are there quotas to what we must fill in order to qualify to being alive? Do we define our life through the people we met over the years? Is it just the many reasons that we, humans justify to define what it actually means to be alive. Can't we just live the way we want to live without any sense of burden to fill in for others and just live the way we want to? Don't you think the reasons why you choose to pursue education, get a job, get married and have kids is not because you want to actually do it but because the world is telling you so? Don't you think that because of these so called quotas that we do it? Ask yourself, if we are not bound by the rules and obligations, wouldn't you just want to be free and do anything that you want? Don't get me wrong but sometime I blame the world that we move to fast and there is just this burden that we have to carry in order to belong in this world. Who decides that we are being alive or not just because of the status that we accomplished? Just because that we don't live to certain peoples expectations doesn't mean that we are bound by what is the society wants from us. I feel like sometimes we are trapped in society's restrictions, well to some extent, to say the least. Society do restricts us from what is bad and wrong within our human morale but then again it limits to what we are able to achieve and construct. Overall, i really believe that the idea of society is a double-edged sword.