Fiction Vs Reality

Have you ever feel that when you see a movie and somehow you feel like the fictional character living the story of that life, has a very similar life to you? Cause i feel i do. I think all of us do. We try to search what we want and what we want to see in every aspect of life. True, they may have several similarities with us but at some point we do have to realize not all life is a fairy tale. There is in fact a reality to every fairy tale. Do you think all princess wait for their prince to be "saved"? Would Cinderella wait for prince charming to save her from her tyrant evil mom and sisters? Would Snow White still be asleep waiting for her prince charming to kiss her? Eventually, if we remove the equation of prince charming would the princesses eventually save themselves? I think eventually...they have to. Otherwise, its just plain stupidity that you rely your life simply based on fictional characters and their lives. We have to rely on our self at some point. We really do. 

Rules of Society

I wonder what does it mean....to live? Are there social obligations that we must fulfill in order to feel satisfied? Are there quotas to what we must fill in order to qualify to being alive? Do we define our life through the people we met over the years? Is it just the many reasons that we, humans justify to define what it actually means to be alive. Can't we just live the way we want to live without any sense of burden to fill in for others and just live the way we want to? Don't you think the reasons why you choose to pursue education, get a job, get married and have kids is not because you want to actually do it but because the world is telling you so? Don't you think that because of these so called quotas that we do it? Ask yourself, if we are not bound by the rules and obligations, wouldn't you just want to be free and do anything that you want? Don't get me wrong but sometime I blame the world that we move to fast and there is just this burden that we have to carry in order to belong in this world. Who decides that we are being alive or not just because of the status that we accomplished? Just because that we don't live to certain peoples expectations doesn't mean that we are bound by what is the society wants from us. I feel like sometimes we are trapped in society's restrictions, well to some extent, to say the least. Society do restricts us from what is bad and wrong within our human morale but then again it limits to what we are able to achieve and construct. Overall, i really believe that the idea of society is a double-edged sword. 

The idea of Gossiping

Why is it that we hate each other? Is there a reason why we can smile in front of others but then we decide to talk behind their backs? What I want to ask all of you is that do we not only enjoy hatred, deceits and cynicism but takes pleasure from it? Don't you feel like doing so within your community strengthens the bond of your relationship with them? That "gossiping" about others makes you feel closer to the people whom you never thought was just like you before. But when we think of it, is it really a good thing? I must say, to some extent it does. Should I lie saying that doing that degrades our humane values? But then, the feeling of enjoying other's pain and misery somehow brightens our day? I know its mean but don't you think the fact that at some point in your lives you have at least gossip about someone? To me its so funny that we talk about other people behind their backs but you also realize that at another place at the same time, someone must be talking about you too. Its really, ironic really but I think its just the part of us being human. We socialize. No matter what exactly are we talking about, we do enjoy the act of being together with other people, talking about a common hatred or subject that we can both agree on. I think that is the reason why we enjoy gossiping, I'm not saying its a good thing but it's not a bad thing either. You just have to accept that the world hates and loves you at the same time. What we lack in love, we make up in the hate of hating others. It's just primal instinct I suppose, we choose to hate because its easier than love, hate makes us survive into stronger and tougher being, and hate provides us the sanity of the world. Because honestly? A world without hate? I don't want to live in that world. Its gonna be so mundane. 

What am I?

Let me go in, let me see who i am, let me understand who have i become

Who am I? 

Who am I? 

What is it that I have become, the animosity inside is growing, fearing that it flies away, come.

What is it that I have become, the dove that grows through souls 

What is it that I have become, the purple crown that i wore is lavish like jewels

Do you not see? My reflection is all i need from you. All i need from you. 

If all you see are my clones, then i will undone myself, not from the world, 

but from you

Do I regret my past?

First love, what can i say? They are the ones we remember throughout our whole life. Looking behind, the moments where you begin to feel like you are transitioning into an adult, where we start noticing the small things that he did, stupid or not we do not really care. Do we see everything in happiness? Not necessarily. Realistically, we see that even though not all of our first love comes true, there are times where we really believe that it could happen. That we believed being with him would eventually lead to being together, that his and my feelings were reciprocal. But.....what have we become? Have we lose the "believing" part? Is it because of adulthood, responsibilities and obligations that we lose our innocence as a child? Or is it just a part of growing up. Happy endings or not, the memory that we did as a child is truly nostalgic. We can't blame our past actions due to our naivety and small perception of the world but what we did.....I never regret every single minute of it. 

Who should i become?

What do we do when we are tired of repeating the same thing over and over again everyday? 

Do we have this unresolved feelings that we must somehow confront when it is time? 

Do we challenge ourselves everyday with the obstacles that hinders us from reaching what we want?

All of these, are we not tired of doing over and over again? It might helps us built who we have become but to reach that stage, isn't it hard enough to confront what we most truly fear in order to grow into a better person. Sometimes, doing it is not as easy as you think. Do we become the person who we do not want? Or we can become someone who we have become truly who we wanted. The future is uncertain, but all we have to do is do good something every day. Maybe we can become a better person someday, something that we can let others know who we truly are. I just hope that someday you will appreciate who i have become. 

Are we in control of our lives?

Maybe, when you look at this, you try make sense of what I am writing. Some of you might think that i am writing out of sense but maybe some of you can relate to what I am about to write. Everyday, Every hour, every minute and every second, we do our daily day to day activities. But do we truly understand why we are given the opportunity to do so? Haven't you wonder the reason why you are where you are? Doesn't it give you the slightest fear that we are not in control of what we will become? Do we simply just act the way live revolves around us and not us revolving around them. Are our daily activities simply just a preconceived notion of something that has already been determined by a higher authority figure of the universe? Maybe. If so, are we judge by our actions? Do our choices determines who we become? Can we become someone that others are proud of? But the underlying question is that why are given the choice to live? To breathe? To feel? Or is everything just an illusion, something that could be a dream that we can just simply be awake of one day and realize, its not our lives anymore that we are living, instead its someone else's.