Story of my life 1

I wish life can be so much easier for everyone. But hey, if life could be easier then the existence of great philosophers would be meaningless. The question that mankind always seek that is the existence of life, will I be happy in life? Will I succeed in life? I would like to have someone that knows the real me you know? Like someone not romantically who can tell me what i want, what i am good at, my weaknesses and what i like. Someone who could tell me that i could do it, that my life will be set in the future so i do not have to freak out about an undecided future. I know, you might think i am wrong. I mean i know that the future cannot be predicted, what we decide, our every single actions will make a change in our future. That is why it is always undecided. I have seen my friends who are going their separate ways now, they are certainly changing in ways that i am grateful for them. But should i feel...jealous? I do not think that being jealous isn't the the right word but it's like we only have one life(unless you believe in reincarnation) and i really want to make the best out of it. Is it wrong then to feel jealous?