So i was looking at people's activities in Facebook, okay i may sound a little like a stalker but trust me i'm not. Its just that i like seeing people's activities, what they are up to at some point of their lives and its in the news feed okay? Don't blame me. Anyways back to the main point, i guess the kids at my age are finding at this point the feeling of finishing high schools and starting their college/universities. I mean, don't get me wrong i'm happy for each and every one of them but i can't help feeling this sense of...not hatred or jealousy but something is missing in my heart or something. I don't hate them because why should i hate them for accomplishing things at some point of their lives right now, socializing and discovering the world as they know it. Or be jealous of them cause that would really make me rather pathetic don't you think? Well i guess what i'm mostly feeling right now is that starting from the earliest memory as a child, i never had something "normal". I've always things different than others, i don't grow up with the normal things kids should have..and i do mean literally things like being able to play toys, sleepovers and friends like any normal child would have. Growing up, i don't always feel to belong with others, but i deal with it, i've had differences but i'm used to it now. But, i wish that at certain times i get treated the same as others. I guess thats the main reason why i do feel this empty heart, a small hole i guess. But then again, thats life right?
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