Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone, enjoy the holidays, we all deserve a good long break. Happy celebrating what ever you believe! I am wishing you guys the best of the best from the West Coast. 

Hard Candy

A dark thriller that is just amazing. The character felt so real, Ellen Page did a really good job portraying the face of every child who has been molested, killed, touched, screwed and played with a pedophile. I'd rate this move 3.5/5. 

I wish.....

I wish i could tell you that "I love you", but honestly these days, who knows what it actually meant

Curious Incident

You will always be the curious incident in my life

Culture

It's so funny how one culture could adapt, learn and keep their cultures intact in the most ridiculous, obnoxious and insane ways that makes us question whether or not we should stick by that culture. See, i grew up in different cultures, not just through the existence of one solitary confinement of a concrete teaching of our predisposition of our ancestors. You know the thing about cultures? They are a crucial part of our lives, i get that but cultures do have its flaws. By just sticking to one culture, i really do not think that we can learn many things in life, hence the existence of a multi cultural world is a must in our world. I have seen the flaws in my culture that if i will not recognize if i haven't embraced into other cultures. Some things that i cannot even stand that i had to literally disagree with their teaching. It's just so weird that people do cynical things in order to preserve their culture or just because they are scared of exploring other aspects in life that might change their whole belief system, indeed it is a indisputable that we are living that world right now. I just hope things change for the better good. 

Happiness?

Is the state of "happiness" for real? Or is it just a prolongation of pheromones and adrenalines?

I wish for you

I wish in time there would be someone who would stand up for me no matter what. I wish in time for someone to watch with me every winter together. I wish in time there is someone who would see me no matter who or what i really am. I wish for you. 

Nothing is good or bad

I'd like to be a person who takes things not as someone who is optimistic or pessimistic anymore. Now that when you think of it, the world would be a better place when we say that nothing is good or bad. Think of it, we say things that had happened good or bad depending on our perception of life. We think that the war is bad because it cost us lives of innocent people and it is sustainably bad for the economy as it depletes our cost and lowers the demand. A weed is a weed, as simple as that. If we do not like it, then it's simply nothing much than a weed. There are medical legit advantages of cannabis( main ingredient from weed), where it stimulates appetite for cancer patients and reduced weight loss. Pretty much, it really depends in our perception. Life sucks only when we judge it as bad. Shakespeare said that "nothing is bad or good but thinking it makes it so" and i really agree with it. Without our so called "ability to think" we cannot ever conclude that life sucks or not. Only until we filter and processed whether or not life is good or bad, beautiful or ugly. 

Let's take account of disasters. Obviously most of us think that it sucks, bad, tragic...basically anything that you can think of that is a negative thing. But think again, even though generally its a negative thing, but a Holocaust survivor says that "...If we were not an eternal people before, we are an eternal people after the Holocaust, in both its very positive and very negative sense. We have not only survived, we have revived ourselves. In a very real way, we have won. We were victorious. But in a very real way, we have lost". We always have ways to account of something bad and turn it into something positive. Obviously Holocaust is not a good thing, i wouldn't say that it's a good thing but perhaps we can say that it happened. We should see it as a lesson, one that we can learn from. Tragedies occurs everyday, there are losses without a doubt, people die everyday. We cannot prevent or change of what has already happened. It is a loss, it's just a matter of how we take account of it, and deal with it sanely. 

Ok Go - Here it Goes Again

The most original music video ever

Kings Of Convenience - Misread

A soothing music that releases the tension during you are stressed. All indie music lovers should listen to it.

Lying

As hurtful as it may sound, people lie. Well, i'm not saying that we lie all the time but yeah we do lie to others and for many reasons. It may be a "white" lie where we lie in order to comfort others or avoid confrontation. It may be a lie where we deceit others in order to show an illusion of the person we want them to think of us, but in reality we are not. We just have to accept that it is in our human nature to lie. The fact that we have a brain shows us that we can think, not only the good things but also the bad things that dehumanizes our character. 

Does your life sucks? Think again

I've always heard people complaining about their lives, like their life is not good enough or that their life seems superficially boring. Well, i think your life is pretty decent when you are given a proper education, shelter and food. Unless if like, you are currently physically, sexually and mentally abuse by your family then i would be wrong. Look at the world in a larger perspective, there are children who wish they have what you  had. So please, don't say your life sucks just cause of the things( You don't get enough allowance, you are restricted to do go out late at night, you cannot get certain expensive items) cause trust me there are more people out there who have much more concerns...say getting food so that they can live another day? 

Books

Appreciate books people. Its teaches not only knowledge but the perspective of the world from our ancestors. Its a valuable lesson. 

Polaroid

I love polaroids. Seriously, like i will never get if anyone hates polaroids. I mean, why would you hate something so unique, vintage and a part of history? Unless you've lived in a cave un-ruled by society for 2 millennia, maybe you can say that but if you're not....seriously i think you're insane. 

Undesirable

Is it too late to want the undesirable?

Top 5 things i want to do by i'm 30

Being raised in a strong traditional Chinese values does have its perks, but there are times when i prefer to follow American values. In my understanding of being successful in life, one is measured by the amount of income and reputation with their community. But who ever said that being successful and happy is defined in that way. Happiness should be where we do not feel any obligations and burden except for our self. I just want to live where i feel no obligations towards others, just living for my self and be happy. Therefore, by the age of 30 I would like to do:

1. Go to a foreign country(That does not have English as their first language) and live there for a year. 

2. Spend my income on food, traveling, leisure and just have FUN.

3. NOT marry, i still do not want to settle down just yet. 

4. Own my own private practice as either a psychologist/psychiatrist. 

5. Speak a fourth language. Possibly Chinese or French. 

Story of my life 1

I wish life can be so much easier for everyone. But hey, if life could be easier then the existence of great philosophers would be meaningless. The question that mankind always seek that is the existence of life, will I be happy in life? Will I succeed in life? I would like to have someone that knows the real me you know? Like someone not romantically who can tell me what i want, what i am good at, my weaknesses and what i like. Someone who could tell me that i could do it, that my life will be set in the future so i do not have to freak out about an undecided future. I know, you might think i am wrong. I mean i know that the future cannot be predicted, what we decide, our every single actions will make a change in our future. That is why it is always undecided. I have seen my friends who are going their separate ways now, they are certainly changing in ways that i am grateful for them. But should i feel...jealous? I do not think that being jealous isn't the the right word but it's like we only have one life(unless you believe in reincarnation) and i really want to make the best out of it. Is it wrong then to feel jealous? 

You were fake, i was great, nothing personal

"You were fake, i was great, nothing personal"

All time low- Break Your Little Heart

Christmas holidays?

How is your christmas holidays everyone? I want to celebrate this seasonal holiday because i never really celebrate it the way others have celebrate it, any suggestions?

Truth?

Truth is a justified true belief. 

IT GETS BETTER

High school is just a part of your life, its only 3 years and there is so much more to see after that. Just don't give up so easily, i've been there, i know how it feels, feeling like there is not any tomorrow and you're life is like a living hell but trust IT GETS BETTER. We just have to be strong about who and what we are and not let others affect you just because you are different, unique and special. Those people can just go fuck them selves. 

Future

The future is not set, the future we hold is through our hands and what we can do to change is not controlled by fate, but our choice itself can hold a new future. 

Top 10 common faults in humans thought

http://listverse.com/2010/01/07/top-10-common-faults-in-human-thought/

Check out this link. This talks about the errors in humans mind and i find it to be true. So interesting to read and understand what our minds think and react. 

"I"

I don't want to become what others expect of me. Its not that i am prejudice, racist or sexist, I just want to be defined as "I" not as anything else based solely from my background

Religion

Don't shut others out just because we believe in different things, we are all the same, inside and out. Why do people have to hate each other just because of different ideologies, its stupid. We live and breathe the same air, we do not have to agree on what kind of beliefs you have, just don't start justifying your actions based on your belief. Now thats stupidity. 

Have faith

Believing something is important, it helps us see and have faith in trust. 

Money and education

Teenagers who can study abroad should have a decency to show some respect for money. Their parents worked hard to be able to send money for their education. The least they can do is not spend in on things that is NOT necessary, i have no respect for these type of people, period. 

Forever

I don't need a sappy, romantic, corny or great words that expresses how you feel about me, all i need is your promise and loyalty. Ever mine, Ever thine, Ever ours

4.10

I wish for you to come

Those days that i missed our long last look

I linger about the way we would have been and our clock

that we could have created

When i meet you again

I will tell you, everything

I miss you

Alpha Male

We tend to see the alpha male in a crowd is the type of men who wears the crowns, who often shows the most expensive plumage and the most colorful garments. He certainly stands out the most from the crowd. But, i now realized that the alpha male is not the man who stands out the most in the crowd, he's the quite one, the man who will always be there, for his family and friends. He is the invisible one. I will believe that from now on. 

Actions

I wish there is something that can be done

Something i could have done to repeat the past

The threads are unwinding

No matter how much i tried, the string is not the same any more

I realized, then you cannot changed your actions

Its there with you, forever and ever

All we have to do is live with it 

Ancestors

Growing up as an Indonesian, with the background of Chinese upbringing yet embraced with Western culture, finding your own identity might be difficult due to the bilingual culture. You might think that being "bilingual" is a blessing but sometimes it can be a double-edged sword. I grew up with those upbringings and i have seen few things that may affect me in determining who i really am and who i have become, needless to say that i am actually proud of it. I can incorporate every aspects in my culture that can be pretty helpful. However, there may be times such as today where i felt how to sum it in a sentence, i guess you could say something wasn't right, it feels like i was lost in translation. Okay, maybe for some of you higher speaking English native speakers, you might find it vague because it is actually quite vague. Well, i'm gonna summarize why i am feeling such discontent. I attended this event which was...how to say it very Indonesian culture. Im not saying its bad or anything, i mean its good that we are embracing, promoting and showing what our culture really was, i'm not sure if it was the poor lightning, host, talk show or whatever that they present made me literally felt suffocation. I mean seriously i just really felt i didn't belong there, personally i was only there to see my High school friends, which i yearn. It was nice to see them. I think that was the high light of of my night. Well, then not mention, most of the younglings that was at the age curve of my age was so different than me. They indulge the gifts of the hard work from their ancestors just so, freely. It was really weird. They didn't know what it was like to feel grateful about what they have and rather exploit it. That was the moment where i decided that i was different than them. They were wanting goods that they already have and greed possessed them like the universe is taken by sunlight. I was just, it didn't felt right. I hope this was a lesson learned for me, to know what i want and who are the people i want to be for the rest of my life that i can be really proud of, the ones who appreciates and values of their upbringings and not just take advantage of it. 

Evolution

People define you through your social interactions, clothing attires and knowledge skills. If we can be defined for who we are instead of what we are, surely man kind can evolve. 

Beef Bourguignon

Hey there, i successfully made Beef Bourguignon as my dinner. It tasted really good, i am satisfied. Julia Child is my personal god when it comes to cooking. Will take a better picture next time. 

Growing up

Im having one of those days where you really miss your friends, you're real friends. The ones where you know that they just would stand up for you, no matter what happens. Its really hard that since high school is over, we go on our separate ways, pursuing our "dreams", seeing our selves grow up, i know that we will change, indefinitely. But its nice to see each other again, to see what person we have become. I cannot wait for that day to happen again. 

You

The world as we know it is at to an end when you came in my life. You changed everything about me, that is all i have to say about you. 

Our irrational is our rational thoughts

Sometimes, we choose not to let go of things, its irrational, but sometime the irrational is our understanding of being rational

Life 101

I should really put my self into the effort of actually writing entires in my blog. Its just that lately with college and everything, haven't had much of the time to express what i feel here. There is so many things that has been happening that i wanted to write here but i was unable to due to the work that i have been cramped up to. So anyways, first things first ever since a child i have this crazy thought because of reading so many comic books that i believe that in this world i was the main character. That means, that the world revolves around my significant being and everything that i decide will have a permanent effect to the world of what i do. But then, i thought what would happen after i'm gone from this world? That REALLY freaked me out, does that mean the story is over or the world keeps moving on? Is the world going to end as i know it? Yes i know, as a i child i was pretty different that a normal, average kid but hey different is good. Anyways that was just my random thought this morning when i was reading a comic book...how ironic right?

Confusion

Confusion is the luxury only the young can afford. 

Pray for Indonesia

I just heard the news of my country, Indonesia, having another earthquake. The earthquake had a magnitude 7.5, it was soon followed with a signal warning of a potential tsunami which seriously scared me. The earthquake occurred in Western Sumatra and happened in 25th October 2010. I'm scared the incident that occurred in December 2004 will happen again, the earthquake six years ago damaged national wide, emotionally and physically to everyone. The earthquake six years ago was the biggest tsunami ever recorded. Its times like these even though i am not a strong faith believer of the higher authority, we should all pray for Indonesia. Its the least that we can all do...

Life Goes On

So i was looking at people's activities in Facebook, okay i may sound a little like a stalker but trust me i'm not. Its just that i like seeing people's activities, what they are up to at some point of their lives and its in the news feed okay? Don't blame me. Anyways back to the main point, i guess the kids at my age are finding at this point the feeling of finishing high schools and starting their college/universities. I mean, don't get me wrong i'm happy for each and every one of them but i can't help feeling this sense of...not hatred or jealousy but something is missing in my heart or something. I don't hate them because why should i hate them for accomplishing things at some point of their lives right now, socializing and discovering the world as they know it. Or be jealous of them cause that would really make me rather pathetic don't you think? Well i guess what i'm mostly feeling right now is that starting from the earliest memory as a child, i never had something "normal". I've always things different than others, i don't grow up with the normal things kids should have..and i do mean literally things like being able to play toys, sleepovers and friends like any normal child would have. Growing up, i don't always feel to belong with others, but i deal with it, i've had differences but i'm used to it now. But, i wish that at certain times i get treated the same as others. I guess thats the main reason why i do feel this empty heart, a small hole i guess. But then again, thats life right? 

Chance

If i'm given a chance to choose one point of my life and re-live it for a day, i know exactly which one, its the day of my first time going to elementary school. Why? Because i know that day is the day when everything changed for me, everything was not the same since then, i lost my childhood and was conformed to society. I want to live free. I like to not know what the future holds account for me. 

Life 101

I'm scared that within 10 years i will be a different person, ten years from now will i still love the people i love now?

Psychology

Psychology is soft science, but maybe its good to study it because people are soft, we can learn a lot from it.

Letters to Juliet

"What" and "If" are two words that are simply as non-threatening as they can be, but join them together and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life but what if, what if, what if i don't know how your story ended but if your story was true love then it is never too late. If it was true then why cant it be true now...All you need is the courage to follow your heart. I may never know what your true love was like, love to leave one's for, love to cross the ocean but i ever do feel it, then i would have the courage to seize it.  If you haven't feel it, then i hope you feel it one day.

Entry 25

Even though there is that statement or prejudice saying that Asians are close with their relatives and all that, i think that statement does not really applies to me. I mean i guess i am very close to my siblings but i never really feel that bond with my family. I love them, its just that i do not feel i know them at all. They never really tell me anything, they don't value public affections and i cannot remember the last time they actually said "I love you" to me. Ive seen many of my friends who seem to have that bond with their families, sometimes i really am envious of them, they are able to not live a lie. Well, i'm just saying that it would be nice if sometimes my family can really see me the way i am, not the way they want me to be. 

In between dimension, our world

I watched us. It was like an old movie roll that plays again and again. I just wish time had stopped for us and let us trap in between dimension, as if we have our own world. 

High School Memories

I doodled a heart and our initials next to it inside my locker. Do you remember? Our long last look that never ends, you somehow bewitched me into falling for you. Those days, where everything seems to be just perfect. 

Long last look

I hope that you never change

I hope that you will remain unchanged 

I hope that you will remember our laughs

I was the writer and you are the actor

We always drink, laugh, and laugh again

Our little secret, how did we get there? Id never know

You come along like the rush of wind

To raise and give me strength, the wind of change

You raised the stakes, to mend my mistakes

I can't pretend i never noticed you, all i know

you were the one

Hang around and i'll try to make last this long last look

Are there people that are born to be evil?

I've seen the world, and there is no such thing as people that are born to be evil. There are only good unfortunate people who becomes evil due to the external and internal forces that caused them to be who they are. 

Indecisive

Your lips has a scent of toxic and tastes like poison

Your kiss has a way of melting my heart and mind

Your heart is so beautiful that it makes me want to faint

Yet why would you kiss me who cannot do such a thing?

I want to fly like a black swallowtail butterfly

I want to run free and not feel any more burden, even if its lame for you but i want that kind of life

Even if it is 99% possible, I want it, even just for a moment

Indecisive lies

Indecisive dreams

Which was should i call the future?

Tyler Clementi

Yesterday i was checking my facebook, and i found this link to the Ellen Degeneres Show where she was talking about a series of teens suicide due to their sexual orientation. Here is the link if you want to see it your self: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=592846987806&ref=mf 

I mean, when i was this video, i was outraged by the fact that people still do this and not expecting the consequences they had on the person who is bullied. Here is the link if you want to see the full story of the suicide of Tyler Clementi caused by a stupid prank of his roommates. http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2010/sep/30/tyler-clementi-gay-student-suicide

I don't like the fact that just because you are different, someone who is by far not according to what the conventional society declares what you're supposed to be, doesn't give you the right to change who they are to conform to being "normal". For all i know, we are living in the 21st century, where time and cultural differences has evolved to the point where it is not that linear anymore, whether not just through sexual orientation but race, culture, age, ethnicity, religion and gender. I just hope that his death is not wasted for nothing but let it be an act of awareness that "bullying" is a real crime where it may ruin younger generation's future because of being emotionally or physically abused. Let people know that this is a real issue and let us not repeat the same mistake and fix it. Through his death, i pray for his family to stay strong and if others who feels the same way as being different that have read this blog, i just want to let you know that you are not alone. This entry is dedicated to Tyler Clementi. 

Entry 24

I hate the feeling of feeling crap about your self when you are alone or reflecting about your past actions, thinking that you can do much better. Don't you? Those little things that you wish it could have been better that makes everyone happy. Here i am, just not in the mood to talk to anyone, just talking to my blog, telling you that i feel my life has not been achieved like it is supposed to be. I really need to be focused in what i want to be in the future, but i just want to have fun and not care anymore. Is it possible to be both? To feel good about your life and yet you succeed in it? 

I'm lost

I'm lost in translation. Can anyone tell me who i am?

Dexter Morgan

I wish my life can be as enigmatic as Dexter Morgan

I loved you like nobody loved me

I've been trying to convince my self that there is nothing between. But, somehow it doesn't feel right. Why does it not feel right? Its not always so easy to tell one thing and to actually do it the things you said. I loved you, it was a great time between the past and present, i just know that there is no future for us. The times with you were something that happens only once in a life time, for that thank you and i'll always remember you. 

I am able to write this because of you

I am able to write this because of you. Even though there are hundreds or thousands of love poems out there and this may be one of them, but only you and only you can understood the meaning written behind it. Others may read and understand what it means but only you can see through this writing like nobody can. You were really my euphoria, my addiction and my drug.

What i need isn't happy endings

I thought about saying this to you many times, words seems meaningless when i'm with you. You make me feel indifferent as i used to feel like a freak. I tried to give in, tell my self that everything will be all right, but maybe happy endings isn't what i need, its to accept who i really am first before i can let anyone accept the whole me. 

Loved

When you told me that you loved me, i was happy, i was scared, i was hopeful, i was relieved, i was loved...There was just so many things i wanted to say to you, but instead i said nothing. I wanted to shout aloud, really, i loved you. 

Why do we crave for power?

I dont like the fact that society are able to affect us in such ways that it can change who you are. The fact that society alone can make us do things we have never thought we can do just scares me. By society i mean the environment that we live in, the people, the hierarchal order of human nature, social order and the need for fame. Why is it that we crave for power? I pity those who do not see them self for who they are and instead tries to be someone they are not just to fit into society. I admire those who can find their true nature. I would like to meet someone like that in my life, someone that i think worth to be with for quite some time. Don't you think so?

Entry 23

So here i am wondering what to do today and i thought it would be nice to write another entry from my blog, fresh memories and to start off my day, i thought it was rather a nice touch. The other day, i thought about the years that i've been living and there was just one question that arouses me, "am i satisfied with it?" . The answer is yes, i am satisfied with it, maybe through another perspective, some would say my life is not as interesting as others or that i don't enjoy it as much as others, but then again, its my life. As long as i feel good about it, then its all good. One way or other, i think we are all "losers" at a certain point of our lives, we feel that its not good enough that we want something better everyday. Thats the reason why people choose to say "im gonna do something different everyday for the rest of my life". To all readers out there, i know you must have been bored reading this blog, im just here to say that im sure each one of you has your own unique life, never think that it sucks cause think of those that are globally (in terms of poverty, unemployment, abuse) cause i'm pretty sure the fact that you can read this makes your life not so bad after all. Till next time!

The words i need from your mouth

3 words, 8 letters, one meaning, say it and i'm yours

My perception of mathematics

My only understanding of a universal truth is through the language of numbers

Entry 22

Wow its been such a long time since i have't really written anything as an "entry", so i decided to write one as some sort as an outpost to what i am feeling at this moment. Please, bear with me as i indulge my thoughts in this blog. I should realize by now that i will never be the people who enjoys life, those ones who spends every day of their life meeting new people, social networking and just travel you know?All the bullshit saying "live life to the fullest"..Well i say fuck it as long as we are satisfied with our choices, then all is good. Not that i would not want to do those activities, cause i do, but i just need to remind my self that i can never be those popular people. Well as a matter of fact i shouldn't really care because its just not me, whenever i did do those things, i only enjoy with when i have a special someone or a close bunch of people that i really trust. Other than that, meeting new people everyday, im just not that enthusiastic to actually do those activities. At some point of our lives, we will feel wanting to belong, but trust me and i say this from experience, that if it does not feel right at the first place, maybe us by that i mean the minorities are meant to do other things, i ain't gonna say you are going to do GREAT things, but something that satisfies to our needs. Trying to fit in? At the long run, its just not going to benefit you. At least from my experience, it didn't so much and now even i do feel like wanting to belong once in a while, i just know that i got to stick to what i believe in and that is all that matters. Hope you readers out there understood the meaning of this entry, till next time! 

Quality>Quantity

Quality>Quantity

Carousel

My favorite childhood ride...Whats yours?

My understanding of "truth"

Define the "truth" will you?....Honestly there are no "truths", its just a matter of perceptions in how we conceive reality in terms of facts and evidence. 

Happy friday!

Happy Friday everyone! Take a break from work and enjoy our 3 day weekend, you guys deserve it!

Reflection

Its almost the end of summer guys, what are you feeling right now? Regret because there are things you wish you could have done over the summer holidays? Relieve because everything you want seem to be in order and everything is just perfect? I feel both, honestly, i can't really say that ive accomplished one thing perfectly. Sometimes i wish i could go back to the beginning of summer just so that i can fix my mistakes but on the other side i am relieved where i am now. This summer, has been good to me. I hope fall will satisfy me better. 

Love is Something

I didn't see it coming,
I've been so used to running,
Love is something that,
I've never known before.

Forgive me if I'm crying,
I'm tired of denying,
Love is something that,
I've never known before. 

I love you

Harry Potter Vs Twilight

This sums up my personal opinion about Harry Potter Vs Twilight 

Don't you agree?

How to solve Problem Solving

Something that i found today in the web which i find quite fucking true.

Source: www.pics.livejournal.com/otterdance/pic/000gf9t6/

Hardest thing in life

What can be harder in life than taking off your mask, revealing your true nature to the world?

I wish life can be like this

I don't want to think, i just want to jump to an unknown direction. 

Black and White

Black and white, the perfect combination of colors. Don't you agree?

Bisex

Ladyboy decided to be bisexual

Kissing men and women are basically the same thing. They are both lips right? It doesn't matter really, as long as you feel pleasure. Anything from the pants up is a fair game. 

Mistakes in life is what makes you "alive"

 a choice by bleu3t

At some point of your life, there is a time where you don't think, you just do it. Whether it is a bad choice, and there are consequences, you can stand up proudly and say "I am living a life". 

People change

time by martybell

People change, i expect that and i get that. Just have enough courage to tell me the truth? Cause i am a grown up and i can handle the reality of life. Trust me, we all do. 

My value of friendship

We may not be side by side again, not having that long last look again and our chapters are turning to an end, i am sure that i will not forget about them, till the end of my breath. 

To all readers out there

Thank you for the 1000 views, love you guys for giving extra time to open this blog<3, here is one for you, dedicated to you all readers out there. 

Respect

Equality by Harl3y

No matter what ethnicity, gender, orientation or religion each individual are, everyone has the same equal rights. Even if we have different perceptions of reality, all we need is to respect our selves and others, then life can be so much better for us to live in.

There is a future in all of us

Let's see, whenever we think of the future, most of us already has a plan to what do we want, what are our achievements, our security and a vision of the life that we wanted. Well, not all of us plan that well, when i think of the future, i see something cloudy, something unknown that may cloud our judgement. The future is unclear, it may come to something that you never expect, something that you never thought would happen to you. But beneath all the dense sky, i believe that there is something worthy. There should be a bright sunshine awaiting for us, if we just work hard in achieving what we want to become. 

What is a perfect body?

  "Make me beautiful, A perfect soul, a perfect mind, a perfect face, a perfect....lie"

The Engine Room

Beliefs

What we believe does not necessarily mean what we understand

Thoughts

60 thoughts by Liol

This morning, i just realized at some point, i will be gone, but can my thoughts be continuous? Can it be imprinted in the world knowing that i am non existent anymore? I want to left something in this world where i can believe that my existence meant something, where it doesn't leave only in height, depth and breath. 

Soulmate

"I think the lonely world that I live in was perhaps self imposed at the beginning but has now become the invisible prison that I can never escape. When all we yearn for is a single soul to understand our own, the greatest pain is realizing it will never be."

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Lets Stay Together

I was happy that you were laughing

With a smile that melts everything away

Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,

Waiting for the time to sprout

For instance, even if today is painful

And yesterday's wounds remain

I want to believe that i can free my heart and go on

I cannot be reborn 

But I can change as I go on, so

Let's stay together alway

Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers

This simple desire is everlasting

I want things to be simple

Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow

I understand the meaning our living here

It is to know the joy of having been born

Let's stay together always

Love is just another word

Love is just another word, what is important is the connection that word implies

The world

I believe that the world is a better place than what everyone said so, surely if it can produce such ethereal beauty then surely man kind can do so right?

How do i love Thee by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. 

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height 

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight 

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace. 

I love thee to the level of every day's 

Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight. 

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right; 

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise. 

I love with a passion put to use 

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. 

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose 

With my lost saints, -- I love thee with the breath, 

Smiles, tears, of all my life! -- and, if God choose, 

I shall but love thee better after death.

Orchids

Orchids are one of my favorite flowers. Its because this flower translates to "happiness of the believers". It gives you so much hope you know?